There are a few things on my heart right now and I just wanted to share them.
First, my sweet friend, Kat, who has been through the heartache of miscarriage, tons of infertility stuff and is just trying to have a child to love and nurture, has decided to adopt internationally. I am SOOO excited for them, but there has been a kink thrown into the plan right now, as they are trying to adopt from Taiwan and their current agency will not be allowed to continue adoptions after May 31st. The prayer here is that Kat and her husband will be matched before that date with the child that God has chosen for them. I ask you to join me in prayer for this situation.
Also on my heart is my sweet friend, Lori, who goes in for her second ultrasound on Friday and for those of you who have been there you know it is scary. Loss torments you and steals a lot of joy from a subsequent pregnancy.
There are quite a few people who are on my heart who are still waiting for their miracle earthly babies and I just ache for them. I wish that there was something that I could do for them, some way to make that happen, some way to make them feel loved and supported and to know that someone cares. Please know that I do care.
Lastly, I just hate that infertility is so real. I hate that there are so many people affected by it. I hate that it still has a taboo feeling attached to it. I hate that people don't know the right words to say, the right way to handle IF people. I hate that pregnancy announcements hurt people who have no children. I hate that for some people it's not an option to use ART or to adopt. I hate that finances have affects on the outcomes for some people. I hate that once you are infertile, you remain infertile, even if you end up with children, through treatment or adoption. I hate that for some of us our babies aren't made in the traditional way, that there is no spontaneity involved. I'll just have to say that plain and simple I hate infertility and the things that it does to one's life.
I am eternally grateful for the advances of medicine and the doctors who choose to specialize in infertility for the right reasons (that would be NOT for making money!). I believe the doctors at SIRM are amazing and if you're looking for an RE or a second/third/millionth opinion, they are so worth your time! You can check them out here.
That's my heart for today, not sad, not mad, just my thoughts.
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