Friday, December 31, 2010
Though in my life today marks the due date for my second angel baby, Michael. Had all things gone well I would be at home celebrating a first birthday! While the pain is less this year, it's still there and the images of a sweet little almost one year old at Christmas still flash across my mind! It doesn't go away, not ever. My MIL lost her last baby on NYE years ago and still recalls it. It never goes away.
One of my sweet sorority sisters lost a baby earlier this year. Her angel would be due today and having been there I know it's sad. On a side note, after her loss, she did the same thing I did and ran a half marathon (we were both inactive in college) and to say she did well is quite the understatement! She kicked butt!!! Much love to you honey!!
So Happy NYE! Remembering angel babies all over!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Friday, December 24, 2010
Emily and I at 1st annual hair jazz competition.
2nd annual hair jazz competition.
Merry Christmas to all and thanks to my Guhs for making it fun! I love y'all!!
Monday, December 20, 2010
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
Caught Noble looking while she was stretching
The lighting is too bright but her bow has Christmas trees and her shirt says "Santa Baby"!
All the babies got groomed yesterday, but Noble would not smile for a picture!!!
LSU tree all lit up, there are some great decorations on there!!!In our LSU game room, mantle and tree decor
Tree in the family room, all red, white, and silver
My mantle and fireplace...
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
This cold weather makes me unhappy! I don't like to be cold. I can't seem to get warm lately! When we moved in here last year we were busy, and let's face it, I was depressed and not doing much! So, our fireplaces never got inspected to make sure they were ok. Well, yesterday the nice Chimney Sweep guy came out and cleaned our chimneys--hooray! There was an empty squirrel nest, and he removed that, so tonight, I lit it up! Ahh the warmth!!!
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
So so much to catch up on...
Monday, November 15, 2010
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Sometimes fear creeps in your life and sometimes it seems to grip you in a way that you can't really understand or overcome on your own. I believe that this is satan trying to keep you from being joyful, and I know that fear is not from God (hence the scripture at the top of my blog). So, I've had some fear issues and some anxiety the past few days, and though I've heard this scripture over and over and over again, I've seen it the past few days SO many times, that I am quite sure that God is talking to me. I choose to trust and believe. I choose to know that He is good and He has my best interest at heart.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Friday, November 5, 2010
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Happy Friday everyone!!!
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Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
Sunday, October 31, 2010
I don't love halloween, probably stems from not liking things that are scary! I never dressed up as anything that wasn't sweet and adorable. I was a witch once, but my mom made a puffy heart and sewed it on the front of my costume and I was a 'soft-hearted witch'!!! That's right! Some other favorites, I was a clown a few times, a fairy (complete with sparkly wand), and a hershey's kiss! All very great costumes made by my sweet mommy!
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Headed to the reception...
Our first dance
I believe this is after cake cutting!
Me and my sweet daddy at the reception.
Us walking out of the ceremony--I was a happy girl! (still am!)
After some (a million) photos, a little silliness, quite typical of my Foxy!
We call this his victory pose, yep, he did it!
After the reception before the party to watch LSU play!
1. My little dog, O'Hara, is a diva, and a bully. I think if my big dogs could talk they'd tell me she's driving them crazy. She's driving me crazy. She barks constantly, at everything, and thinks that 7:30am is a good time to wake up. It's NOT!!!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
So, a couple of weeks ago I read a book that I wanted to share with all the BLMs, then I decided that I would share it across the board, as it deals with loss. For those of you who are interested in how people deal with loss and infertility, this book gives a good insight I think. I tells something of how people feel in these situations, perhaps better than I do on this blog. Or maybe it's just that it being in a book makes me feel more validated because obviously someone else has felt these things, and needed to write about them! I hope you enjoy this book, as much as I did!
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Sometimes on this road of infertility, the wind can get knocked out of your sails. Without great family and friends it could be very easy to just give up, to quit and to accept defeat. The fear of what can go wrong can seriously overwhelm you, especially when the hits keep coming. Today I cling to the verse in 2 Timothy 1:7 "God did not give us a spirit that makes us afraid but a spirit of power and love and self-control!". I am claiming the power that God gives each of us and that He has a plan for me "they are plans of good and not of disaster, to give you a future and HOPE!" Jeremiah 29:11. Thanks to my sweet kindred spirit for sending me that one today!!
Psalm 119:28 (New International Version)
28 My soul is weary with sorrow;
strengthen me according to your word.
And I know that He is with me always, as this verse demonstrates. I found this verse after my first loss and again came across it after the second. My sweet friend, Karla (mother to the sweet twins born at 32w,4d, who are totally fat and adorable, home and doing great now!), sent me some great verses last night! It is great to have friends who encourage me so, not allow me to wallow in sadness or despair!
Psalm 34:18 (New International Version)
18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 40:1-3 (New International Version)
he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the LORD.
I remember praying for patience before, and I'm learning that He is teaching it to me, and teaching me to trust in Him completely with no other focus, no other dependency. In Him alone I will put my faith!!!
Psalm 145:18-19 (New International Version)
18 The LORD is near to all who call on him,
to all who call on him in truth.
19 He fulfills the desires of those who fear him;
he hears their cry and saves them.
I really like this one, as I love to sing, I love to worship God in song, and the thought of Him singing over me is so comforting!!
Zephaniah 3:17 (New International Version)
17 The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing."
And finally, I leave you with my favorite scripture ever. This one I have claimed for years, and even cross-stitched when I was in high school (yes, I did cross-stitch!). The promise of Him NEVER leaving me is so comforting because I know in this journey through infertility and loss you often feel alone, and it's when I feel the most alone that His peace overwhelms me and I REST in the knowledge that He is in control!!
Isaiah 54:10 (American Standard Version)
10 For the mountains may depart, and the hills be removed; but my lovingkindness shall not depart from thee, neither shall my covenant of peace be removed, saith Jehovah that hath mercy on thee.
There were lots of hopeful blog posts today and for that I'm grateful as well. I want to share a quote from Once a Mother's blog that she read on a friends fb...
"Don't let the sadness of your past and the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present!!" Can I get an AMEN?!!? Send her some love too, she's on week 7 of bed rest and for anyone who has been on it, you know that it can really wear on your soul!
Continuing in HOPE and BELIEVING that God will provide!!!
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Today (well yesterday now, thanks to some technical difficulties) I went to a late lunch with my sweet friend, Britt. We both LOVE wingstop, so we went there and made our tummmies happy while talking about all manner of things, babies, lost babies, husbands, friends, things that made us laugh, things that weren't so funny. After we visited for a while, we decided that we would go do our own balloon release in honor of our sweet angel babies. So, off to the party store we went! It was super fun really, in a sad way that we would even have to do this, to even know that yesterday was National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. Still, it felt really good to honor our angels and watch them soar way above us in the sky. I imagined them in the arms of my Maker, and knew that as much as it hurts, they are in good hands.
Friday, October 15, 2010
At 7:00pm around the world people will be lighting candles to honor their lost children. Please light one with them, or send them your support!
My sweet babies,
Thursday, October 14, 2010
O'Hara was really passing out the love
O'Hara had just licked my mouth...grosssssss
He's trying not to have squinty eyes...