Year in Review 2010

I'm going to make this short and sweet...

Bad things in 2010:

1. O'Brien dying. This was really the worst thing of the year. That may sound ridiculous, considering #2, but when you're a dog lover and had a dog for 11 years, the loss is profound! I think about him everyday, literally every single day. When I pulled out my Christmas things his stocking was in there and his little Bah Humbug hoodie (which he hated, but was perfect for him), and I cried a river of tears for my little guy!

2. Our adoption that was a scam (sadly today I came across more ultrasound pics, which I thought I had gotten rid of, and it just baffled me to think that someone could be so very intentionally cruel). I feel like I'm over the anger most of the time, but sometimes it just overwhelms me again!

Good things about 2010:

1. I got a job at the church doing exactly what I've been wanting to do for a few years now, overseeing all of the girls ministry activities! Bonus: I love the people I work with!

2. I started making friends in Tyler, which was a must! Thanks to Kristi for making me feel so welcome and always making me laugh. Also got to meet a fellow BLM, Brittany, who is like a sister now and we have a blast together, I think, even when we're sad about our babies!

3. After losing O'Brien we got O'Hara. She is a bag of handful and more of a diva than anyone I know, but she's pretty cute and entertaining too. Still, like children, one animal never replaces another!

4. Hubby got a new partner at work, which lightened the load, at least for a little while!

5. My Fab5 (other 4) encouraged me and helped me to find a great RE, who I saw in September initially (following a rave recommendation from sweet Amy). We had testing done, found our culprit and how to treat it. This leads to #6...

6. We are pregnant and farther along than we've ever been with things looking great. We are thankful beyond words, and I wish that I could give this gift to every BLM out there who is still waiting on their rainbow baby!

These are just highlights, there are many more good things that happened this year (my getting to go to 4 LSU games, only one of which we lost), and for all of the blessings, and all of the wonderful people in our lives I'm soooo full of joy!

This is me.....

Today and for the past few days, this is who I have felt like! I'm usually pretty bubbly and happy, but I'm owning my grouchiness for the past week. I think it is warranted, but I also hate when I start acting like this. I used to be a really grouchy person most of the time, just a "glass half empty" type, but I really don't usually feel that way anymore. Today and the past few days I really have, I've noticed my short temper with anyone and everyone, especially with traffic! I hate traffic, a huge reason why I didn't love Dallas, and I'm not excited about going back there all the time! But It's been pretty much everything, things that usually don't bother me, but even my poor dogs are getting on my nerves, and you should all know by now how much I love them.

I will say that tonight as I was having a good cry at Army Wives, I realized again just how much I miss O'Brien. My dogs are amazing, but he and I were bonded in a very special way and he knew when I was sad, and knew just how to make me feel better! I miss my little buddy something serious tonight!

Goodnight all! Hoping I wake up on the right side of the bed tomorrow and with a sunnier disposition!