"I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born." Isaiah 66:9

Sunday, August 22, 2010

This is me.....

Today and for the past few days, this is who I have felt like! I'm usually pretty bubbly and happy, but I'm owning my grouchiness for the past week. I think it is warranted, but I also hate when I start acting like this. I used to be a really grouchy person most of the time, just a "glass half empty" type, but I really don't usually feel that way anymore. Today and the past few days I really have, I've noticed my short temper with anyone and everyone, especially with traffic! I hate traffic, a huge reason why I didn't love Dallas, and I'm not excited about going back there all the time! But It's been pretty much everything, things that usually don't bother me, but even my poor dogs are getting on my nerves, and you should all know by now how much I love them.

I will say that tonight as I was having a good cry at Army Wives, I realized again just how much I miss O'Brien. My dogs are amazing, but he and I were bonded in a very special way and he knew when I was sad, and knew just how to make me feel better! I miss my little buddy something serious tonight!

Goodnight all! Hoping I wake up on the right side of the bed tomorrow and with a sunnier disposition!


  1. Praying for God to ease your burdens tonight! Sweet Dreams Deni! (((HUGS)))

  2. We lost our sweet Random 4 and a half years ago...he was absolutely precious to us and we were truly just heartbroken to lose him. I still get a good sob in every so often when I just look at his picture. It was a year ago last month that we lost our Raleigh (also to cancer) and on the anniversary of that weekend, I sat on our front porch at midnight, remembered that weekend and the last time spent with him and just sobbed and sobbed and sobbed.

    They are family members and it hurts. I always think about your heart when I visit here and see his sweet picture.
    Sending you lots of love!

  3. My kindred spirit, you have found yourself in the valley. It's a place where I spent some time recently as well, but I woke up with a new vision for what I want my life to be. I could be disappointed in this cycle failing and all the effort and money put into it to only get negative results and be angry. Or, I could be optimistic, give myself a break and gear up to see things in a new light. Not sure how I got my head around this, but I did. And, I read a host of success stories! Women who were successful and had wayyyy more problems than you or I do. I guess that was my Ah Ha moment.

    So, let's turn that frown upside down today! Here's to making a list of what you want to accomplish this week...that YOGA class, that indulgent massage, now we're talking!

    I know your heart is heavy and you've had a VERY good run in the storm of happiness. Now, just take things as they come, feel what you need to feel and "be you". Keep talking and keep feeling.

    AND, above anything else, I am here for you! Vent to me anytime, okay :)

    Love you to the Moon and Back!!!

  4. Just sending you a Hug right now. I hope and pray your spirit eases soon.

  5. Just checking in on you. I hope you are feeling better today. xo