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"I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born." Isaiah 66:9

Friday, December 25, 2009

Blue Christmas

It is nice to have family and friends during Christmas and gifts are nice too. But I must say this is a blue Christmas without my angels. There are no gifts that could replace what I've lost. All the Christmas carols in the world can't cheer a babylost mom for more than a few hours. People asked me what I wanted for Christmas repeatedly, and I had no answer to give for what I really wanted is not something that anyone can give me. It is doubly hard to hear about all of the happy children enjoying their gifts and learning about Jesus. I have no baby to share this special holiday with, two Christmases in a row with no baby on the way & still no baby in my arms!

I am very greatful for the gift of the birth of my Savior. There is HOPE in the birth of that sweet baby over 2000 years ago! There is JOY in that hope and I will look to the future for that HOPE! I must say that I am extremely greatful for my other babylost mom friends, Andrea, Shandrea, Nan, & Angie, thank you ladies for helping me through this difficult time! You are blessings to me!

To all of my friends and loved ones here's to 2010, may it be a blessed year!

5 comments:

  1. Yes this was a blue christmas indeed. But i am holding on to hope for us all that next year will be better, much better. Sending love and hugs to you :)

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  2. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers for God's peace and blessings.

    Love and hugs,
    Katy

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  3. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers for God's peace and blessings.

    Love and hugs,
    Katy

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  4. Glad we can sweep this Christmas under the rug and look forward to setting our sights on "happier" days ahead.

    Although we will never forget our angels, I do pray that we find the path of healing and are able to make strides toward "restoration" in 2010. I say restoration because that is what we are forced to do, restore ourselves.

    Hugs and Love,
    me

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  5. Hi honey,
    Yes this was definitely not an easy Holiday to navigate, I think I am still depressed from all of the things that "should have been" this Xmas. I am sorry this has to be blue for any of us, no one understands us like we do. Thinking of Layla and Michael with you, and your upccoming EDD for Michael. Love, Nan xo

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