"I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born." Isaiah 66:9

Monday, May 10, 2010

Just some thoughts

These may be really random...

First, an update that we did have our hearing and were approved for placement on Friday. That means that Cala will be able to come home with us, legally, when she is born. Our attorney said it made us the 'official babysitters' for her for the first year of her life, until the adoption was final. I'm going to say it, I didn't love that term, but he's a guy, so I don't take it personal!!

Second, It amazes me that so many miracles happen everyday. I want to reiterate what a miracle Cala is! If you haven't read the story about how we got matched up with our Baby Mama and all of that, you should, it's amazing! But I also wonder, will I ever know that feeling of having a baby, carrying it to term, delivering, all of that? Will that be part of MY miracle story? I'm just ready for it to be my turn. And what if it never is? That may be God's plan, but I'm sure not ready for that! I just keep praying and keep standing firm that He has a perfect plan. Sometimes I just feel like the whole world is marching on without me and I'm left behind, wanting to be in the game, but not being picked yet (I was never good at sports, so not being picked is typical!).

Third, Do you know how funny it is to watch my 100+lb white shepherd clean my 1.6 lb chi-poo? They crack me up, as it's the most unlikely pairing, but they clearly love each other--hilarious!!

Forth, I feel sorry for people who don't have friends like mine. To name all of my friends, that I consider close and special would be a little bit bragadocious! Seriously, I feel infinitely blessed everyday when I realize how many people love me, care about me, support me, and are TRULY there for me. I've had some very hard situations where I realized that someone I thought was a true friend turned out not to be, but I can't really complain, considering the number of phenominal friends I have. Thank you to each of you for touching my life and making me a better, stronger person!

Finally, who loves HOUSE??? I do! I do! And it comes on tonight, so that's where you'll find me!

Happy Monday everyone!


  1. OMG that is beautiful news. I am so excited for you and I want every blessing from God to be yours forever.

  2. I need to read the story of how you got matched. I love happy stories. And I can understand why you don't like the term babysitter. You will be Mom, I have no doubt about that. :)

  3. I don't like that term either, but you are right...he's a guy. Go figure.

    I love the thought of your pups together. Dixie has started licking Sam's ears for him. Sam, of course, feels like he has found a slice of Heaven.

    I'm sort of grossed out by the whole thing. They are brother and sister, after all! :)

    Lots of love!!!!

  4. Yay for your placement approval! Will you explain the process for us at some point? You might already have...but it sounds like Texas does things much differently than Alabama. I have never heard of a one year wait before the adoption is final...

    You are right, he is a guy, but that was still pretty insensitive. Especially in his line of work, I assume he has dealt with many adoptions. You'd think by now he would learn that that is not the type of thing you say!

  5. Congrats on being approved for placement!
    LOL, that image of your dogs is cracking me up too :).

  6. Sending you lots and lots of hugs Deni, and i do believe that you will one have the miracle of carrying and delivering a healthy baby. Praying for you and sending you love.

  7. Really great news about the placement! I can't believe in just a matter of two months (or less!) she will be with you. Amazing.

    Oh Deni, I know it's hard when it seems like the rest of the world is moving ahead and you are left behind. That waiting is so, so hard and the longer it goes the more desperate you feel. However, I believe that God has great things in store for you. He has already made you a mother, and now I can't wait to see him fill up your home with those precious gifts. Thinking of you often.