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"I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born." Isaiah 66:9

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Hallelujah


Well, that was my facebook post yesterday (still is since I don't change it every 5 seconds), and this is why...

We got back our test results from everything with Dr. S at the best clinic ever (hope that doesn't change). It seems weird to say that I'm excited that they found something, but for those of us who have had more than one loss, you know that having a reason is paramount. If you have a reason, you know what to do, you know if you can treat it, you feel that you've been responsible by finding it so as not to have another loss, and you are glad to know it's nothing that you 'did' that caused your losses.

With all of that said, all of hubby's tests came back normal, hooray for the love of my life! He is the best thing that ever happened to me. I, however, wasn't so lucky! If you've lost more than one child, you know that it makes you feel like a little death trap, and you want to stop it if you can. Many women who lose more than one baby don't even want to try again for fear of killing another baby. Sounds dramatic, but really it's how we feel.

Without further ado, I have hyperactive Natural Killer Cells!! Yep, these little cells are in everyone's body, mine are on overdrive, which means they are attacking my embryos, usually before they ever implant, but obviously twice ours got past that (which to me means that Layla and Michael were some serious fighters!!!). This is good news because as Dr. S says "if you have to have something wrong, this is a good one because it's easily treatable!". There are a few choices for treatment and the clinic where I go is fairly cutting edge, so we will be using IV intralipids to treat the NK cells, or suppress them so they don't keep killing my babies!

We are very happy to have an answer/diagnosis! I finally feel hopeful after a very long time of feeling despondent. Since we know what is happening, we actually have a plan. This new clinic is full of helpful people, who are kind to me, call me by name (which is my nickname, but they got it right the first time), and didn't freak out when I had a mini mental last week and cried on the phone to all of them! So, here's praying that a plan ends with a happy, healthy, "bring home baby" (that term is thanks to my friend, Katharine, I like it!).

Special thanks to Andrea, Shandrea, and Nan for encouraging (pushing me when I couldn't do it myself) me to find a new RE!!

And again I say Hallelujah, and share this song with you!

P.S. If anyone is interested in the clinic that I'm going to and my RE, you are welcome to email me and ask, I'll answer any questions I can! (deni.troxclair@gmail.com)

18 comments:

  1. I've been waiting for this post since you posted on fb yesterday. Have you read any of Dr. Alan Beer's books? He writes a lot about immune system issues and losses. You might find some of it interesting. Praying for you, friend. xo

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  2. Oh, Deni! I'm so glad your new docs were able to identify the issue and determine the way forward. This sounds like a good clinic & I'm so glad you found it!

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  3. And I am so happy to be rejoicing with you!! Continuing to pray for direction and praising Him throughout all of this!

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  4. What an answered prayer!!! I'm so glad that you found a doctor, a clinic that you trust, that treats you with respect, and makes you feel comfortable. So happy that they were able to find a diagnosis and that there is a treatment. Now we can all know exactly what to pray for!!! xoxo

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  5. This makes me so happy for you and Sean! I am glad that you have found such a good clinic/doctor to help you "bring home baby".

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  6. So happy for you Deni! I know it feels great to have some answers and especially to have a solution! Can't wait for what the future holds for you.

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  7. Deni, I'm so glad to read this update! I know it may seem weird to celebrate a diagnosis, but I totally get it. Some of our hardest times were after a loss when we couldn't get any answers. We desperately wanted to know WHY so we could do something about it! I'm thrilled that your doctor has found something that is fairly easily handled. I'm celebrating with you and am SO excited about what the future holds! God is good, and He is able! Continued prayers for you, sweet friend!

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  8. That is great news! I've never experienced pregnancy lost, but I remember going through testing for IF and PRAYING they would find something wrong with me. Because like you said, if they know what it is, they usually know how to treat it!

    So happy that they found something wrong with you as it sounds like there is a great gameplan moving forward. You so deserved this wonderful news. :)

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  9. Hallileujah is right! Keep pushing forward honey...and we are all right here cheering you on to success! Which is just around the corner I might add :)

    Much Love
    xxx

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  10. So glad your Hubby's tests came back great :). That's great too, that they found the Natural Killer cells! Something you can fix is ALWAYS better than not knowing :).

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  11. Yay! I am so glad to hear that they found something. The most frustrating thing to hear during IF and loss is "We can't find anything wrong" or "Everything looks normal." Things obviously aren't normal so what in the world is causing the problems? Sigh...Anywho, very very glad that they found soemthing and that it is treatable. So happy for you guys and praying that things can move ahead quickly now!

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  12. Yay!!! So excited for this next chapter in the Troxclair family journey!! Tell your friend Katharine that she is the very first person who spells her Katharine the same way I do! Love you!

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  13. What great news and even better it is easily treatable!!!!

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  14. Still so incredibly excited for you and Sean!!! Gives me hope that this isn't the end of the road for me either!

    And Gracie...people named "KathArine" rock! ;)

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  15. Glad your problem is treatable that is GREAT news!!!

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  16. You know...I meant to say something to you the other day on FB and got caught up in trying to catch up and forgot all about it....but I wanted you to know that my sister has this...along with a host of other stuff that goes with her lupus, but she also has two beautiful and healthy, happy children because she had great doctors who were able to manage and treat her pregnancies!!!

    So excited for the upcoming days for you friend!
    xoxo

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  17. That's amazing Deni! I'm so happy for you that you finally have the answers & now have a set battle plan! God is definately Good! (((HUGS)))

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